Dear stress, lets break up

The hardest part of this parenting journey is learning to let go. I know that we raise our children to let them go (no I do not want 40 year old men that I am having to kick out of the house) however I am not ready to let go quite yet. I am sitting here on the bed, head spinning, going through all my paperwork for Monday. Both boys start school on monday and I am feeling enough stress, anxiety, worry and sadness for the three of us combined. I have shed so many tear that I can't believe I have any left. This may be a time that I look back on and laugh at, I know that there are much more important things to worry about but as of right now I can not shake these emotions. I am a control freak (this is not surprising to those that know me) so I can not bear the thought of giving my babies over to someone else.

Sending my boys off to school........Something that is so hard for me yet fun for them.

Being a grown up stinks sometimes.